A dirty word in this day and age,

Something to be scoffed at

The new cave art of the poor,

Who can’t use or afford a computer.

Never seen as anything more

Then Shabby.





Writing utensils come in all forms

Ink, rollerball, hitech nib, eraser.

I just want a pen that works!

One that freely flows and follows my fast hand

As I desperately try

to explain.





is the preparation, the scribble

the initial thought process.

So really it’s the magic – the idea!

In those sullied margins and scored through words

Are the beginnings of something

from within





is something I love, not like a fetish you understand. But clean

and crisp and white and waiting

for it’s story, it’s chance, it’s page to be written.

Like I once was a long time ago,

Before you.





Is my own special way of telling you

how I feel, what’s going on

inside my tumultuous brain,

of explaining how it feels to be regimented

and governed by external forces.

Namely, meds.





Used to crowd my fingers like welcome warts.

A badge of honour for me,

indication of writing,

of ideas and feelings transferred, captured, understood

and written.





Each curve, loop, punctuation mark

A release, a sigh, a

direct reflection of me.

A cathartic, therapeutic, outpouring

that contains the truth, the words

I swallow.





Always seems so anaemic to me.

It takes away the passion,

Synergy of mind and body

as you furiously translate your heart beat

and firing synapses and desires

to paper.





A shabby, half prepared way of saying

I’m regaining control,

I’m reconnecting with me.

finding ways of writing again and living,

of saying I Love You Always

Hand Written.



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