Blue and New

Handwritten
A dirty word in this day and age,
Something to be scoffed at
The new cave art of the poor,
Who can’t use or afford a computer.
Never seen as anything more
Then Shabby.

Pens,
Writing utensils come in all forms
Ink, rollerball, hitech nib, eraser.
I just want a pen that works!
One that freely flows and follows my fast hand
As I desperately try
to explain.

Handwritten
is the preparation, the scribble
the initial thought process.
So really it’s the magic – the idea!
In those sullied margins and scored through words
Are the beginnings of something
from within

Paper
is something I love, not like a fetish you understand. But clean
and crisp and white and waiting
for it’s story, it’s chance, it’s page to be written.
Like I once was a long time ago,
Before you.

Handwritten
Is my own special way of telling you
how I feel, what’s going on
inside my tumultuous brain,
of explaining how it feels to be regimented
and governed by external forces.
Namely, meds.

Inkstains
Used to crowd my fingers like welcome warts.
A badge of honour for me,
indication of writing,
of ideas and feelings transferred, captured, understood
and written.

Handwritten,
Each curve, loop, punctuation mark
A release, a sigh, a
direct reflection of me.
A cathartic, therapeutic, outpouring
that contains the truth, the words
I swallow.

Typing,
Always seems so anemic to me.
It takes away the passion,
Synergy of mind and body
as you furiously translate your heart beat
and firing synapses and desires
to paper.

Handwritten.
A shabby, half prepared way of saying
I’m regaining control,
I’m reconnecting with me.
finding ways of writing again and living,
of saying I Love You Always
Hand Written.

By: Becky Bite